[Life] 拜拜

原本已经没有再想了。因为以为已经结束了。
以为现状能够一直维持到年末。
（可是又有多一个朋友说拜拜了，班上由一开学的43人减少到现在31人。）
朋友们走了，飞了。我也哭过了，流了感性没意义的眼泪。
也许再见面，不绝的话语不再滔滔。成有节奏的间断。
留恋，又能怎样？（把一小部分的回忆分给纪念册。）
过去了的是历史。历史就是一秒秒地增加的。有时候就是不想留恋往事，但我阻止不了自己不回头。阻止不了自己的不舍、自己的泪腺崩溃。（就让我这样呆望着纪念册一阵子吧。）
我们共同拥有的，（我相信）都印在历史里了。
现在，我只能站在这里（因为没办法到你们那儿啊），挥挥手，
祝福你们，拜拜咯。

[梦呓]杂声

明明就是一片宁静。
明明我的生活就是这样子。
明明我的房间里就只有米白色的天花板、泛黄的四面墙、一张木床、木桌和木椅。还有一盏日光灯。
明明我就只相信我相信的东西。
可是你突然告诉我这不是我的房间。
你突然否定了我的信念。

（怎么办？）

我无语。
你在洗衣机转动的时候（当水混合洗衣粉与衣服上的污物产生反应时），突然加入黑色墨汁。因此，都脏了。
我愣了。
你把理所当然的事情，都变得莫名其妙了。我毫无头绪。我完美运行着的思绪，乱了。

（很吵，很烦。）

我掩耳摇头，这些杂声，给我滚开。

[梦呓]现在爱你

除了仿佛，还是仿佛。
除了能够被证明的科学和数学之外，其他的，我都只能用仿佛来形容。
仿佛，爱你。
我没有办法证明我爱你，因为我没有办法证明我的记忆是100%确切、100%真实的。

如果你相信我，相信我的仿佛，那么我对你的爱，就能够通过你被证明了。
我可以相信你要我相信的一切，唯“永远”和“未来”除外。（这种东西实在是太飘渺了）
因为，我只相信此时此刻的“现在”。

现在，我爱你。

[Quiz] What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

[Obsession] As Stable As Benzene

Manga. Comic. 漫画 (man hua).

I once wondered about my existence. I've always believed that I live for mangas, as life is manga, manga is life. I eat manga, play manga, bathe with manga and sleep with manga. Just kidding. I just read manga, draw manga, talk manga, sing manga, and probably, from others observations, i act manga-ish too. (Did I?)

I used to spent most of my pocket money on mangas. And used manga to measure prices. For example, If I have RM30 that week, I would've spend 5/6 of it, that is RM25 on mangas. The other RM5 goes to my bus fare and some food. If I see a set lunch on a menu priced RM16.90, my mind will be telling me, "Hmm, that's the price of 3 to 4 mangas. Are you sure you're going to order that? Why not just save it for your precious mangas?" "Yeah...you're right......all for...my...precioussssssss......"

I wouldn't look at any food, accessories, books, food, clothes, toys, keychains...my eyes were specified just to look for mangas. I danced and jumped for mangas. I cried and laughed hysterically for mangas. I sneered at those who discriminate mangas. I would even die for manga.

Well...guess that was history. I still enjoy mangas and animes. Still keeping track of the new mangas. I'm learning how to draw, how the authors express their ideas and themes, how they brought out the suspense, how they plot the story...etc. I think the structure of benzene is best to describe my love for mangas now - stable yet unsaturated.