Moving Out

Stayed here for some time.
Stuffs turned old and rusty.

Not good.
Perhaps I should go out and try to fly?
Nah.

Perhaps I should just Go Upstairs
Step by step, and
My world will start anew.



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[Life] You

Back.
Back to myself.

Changes have been applied to me.
Good or bad, I don't need to explain.

Words I used to write (type) out have sometimes, most of the time been switched to spoken words.
A good listener I have.
Always there to listen, to talk, to interact, to encourage.
Always there, patient and dedicating.

"How do you know me?" You asked.
It's you who walked and sent yourself to me.

You know that.
Thank you is just isn't enough. Never enough to show my appreciation of you and what you have done.

You made me believe in the 'L' word.
You did it.

[梦呓] 活动灵魂

我还是属于忙碌的人吧。
记得心里测验说过我是个不忙不欢的人。

忙得很累。忙得要命。
但却觉得很充实
活着的充实。

虽说充实不是无端的忙碌
但有时候，虽说不知道自己怎会那么忙
但忙，就不要问为什么会忙了。

忙的时候，我才会有动力。
活着的动力。
勇敢追求的动力。
头脑身体也会活了起来。

灵魂才活得起来。

继续做忙碌的人吧。
太闲，总觉得自己在浪费生命。

灵魂要活起来。

[梦呓] What I've Lost

I think I already know what I've lost.

So much to say, so much to feel.
But there just isn't enough time to think too much about every little thing.
Or maybe we ourselves don't want to think.

As we grow, the problems and troubles that we have to face is also 'growing'.
To avoid being crushed by these problems,
we just have to stop thinking too much.
Stop feeling too much.

Perhaps this is what people mean when they say 'you've grown up!'
And also the line 'ignorance is bliss'.

Perhaps, I'm just lazy.
But I really hope that I'm lazy than to think that I've lost the sensitive ability to feel.

[Life] Lost

1. I felt that I've lost my brother since he got his girlfriend some years ago. Well, fiance as for now.
2. I am losing my habit of going on MSN everyday.
3. I feel really bad for abandoning (in a way) my comics and japanese learning.
4. I feel sorry for my drawing hobby, I rarely draw or ink anymore.
5. Parts of me have struggled to leave me.

6. Because there are new things taking over them.
7. New people.
8. New surroundings.
9. New culture.
10. New habits.
11. New stuffs.

12. I still miss the old me. Well, some things in me never change though.
13. But some did.

14. I know because I felt it deeply.
15. It's not something bad, I just feel sorry to lose some of the old me.

16. Sorry.

[梦呓]目送

不要走。
我只能这样说吧。
我们只能这样说吧。
因为我们还是没办法
要走。

只能站在我的地上，与你平行的向前走。
我也不去找她们了。我要送你。
你踏出大门。我爬上看台。
等你经过。目不转睛。
你攀上了天桥，我心陪你上桥。
始终目不转睛地。

你开始走远了，离我越来越远了。
我仍站在原地。
我们只能远处依依不舍的相凝望。

桥灯昏暗。哪怕是一个眨眼，都会把你弄不见。
我好害怕你就这样不见了。

你越来越小。随着你下了阶梯。你又不见了。
你躲在柱子后吗？你绕道走了吗？你去了哪里？
鼻子酸酸的，但我不允许视线变模糊。

心被盐腌着，被大力揪着。呜。

仍追随你的影子，送你送到月台。
看见你拿起手机要找我；我也赶紧发了一个字的短讯给你，希望会比你快。

“不要走。不要走啊。”

原想把你送到火车上。
但最后我还是先走了。